F's reaction was very different. He was completely happy as long as I sat on the floor with him (yesterday, 2 hours and today for an hour). If I so much as got up to walk across the room the waterworks started. After I got him down for his morning nap yesterday, I left him for about an hour and half. The teachers said that when he got up he was in a good mood and only cried a few times. So I guess that's good news. Today was much the same. I stayed for an hour today, because I have to leave to get a tooth filled (woohoo!). He was happily eating puffs when I kissed him on his fuzzy head and told him goodbye. The teachers distracted him, but he saw me leaving and the crying was loud and constant. :( When we got pregnant with F, I thought "well, he'll be almost a year when I start school." Of course, I expected another baby like T. T would have been totally OK with daycare at 10 months. F, not so much.
Yes, I know it's going to get better. Yes, I know school is the right thing for our family. Yes, I know it's only 3 days a week. None of those things stopped my tears or made it any easier. It makes the idea of just delaying school for a few more years seem very attractive. Is this actually the right decision?