Sunday, September 19, 2010
Table, Refinished
Saturday, September 18, 2010
All important sleep?
F has mostly acclimated to daycare. He likes the women in his room, enjoys the other babies and eats well. He is not sleeping well.
Most days he'll only take two short, 15-20 minute naps. Then when he gets home, he's tired and miserable. I've taken to putting him down for a third nap around 4:30 or 5 just so he's not so sad all evening. The short naps during the day are beginning to affect his nighttime sleep too. On days that he doesn't sleep much during the day, he gets up earlier the next morning. Then, on the weekends when he finally gets good napage, he'll sleep for 13+ hours overnight. For F, anyway, sleep begets sleep and no sleep begets no sleep.
This can't be good for him, right? Ry thinks I'm overreacting, but I've started to look into a home-based childcare arrangement or nanny for F. I think the daycare is just too bright, too loud and has too much going on for him to sleep well. Am I overreacting? I keep thinking the sleeping will get better, but if anything, it has gotten worse over the past 3 weeks.
Is the catch-up sleep enough? Is sleep important enough to move him even though I like everything else about the school? This is hard. :(
Friday, September 17, 2010
My sunny, funny boy
T is beginning to understand letters (this morning, "RED spells red!"). He's highly mechanical and I'm afraid we'll come downstairs some morning to find he's dismantled our dishwasher. It will be OK, of course, because "Daddy will fix it!" Oh, to have that kind of faith.
So far, T is still blissfully unaware of fashion, but has a strange fixation on shoes. The shoes he's wearing in this picture (with accessorizing pajamas and bathtub mat) are flashing shoes. He simply had to have them when we went back to school shopping a few weeks ago. Now he wants to wear them with all clothing.
He's not particularly into sports, but loves to climb, run, and slide. He's a good eater (even if he gags on anything green these days). Despite that, he's skinny. I have to cinch his pants down as far as they'll go.
Just like Daddy, T loves a good video game. As a matter of fact, he loves just about anything involving a screen. The computer is always his first stop at school in the morning, and every Wii game is his "favorite game!"
T makes me crazy, but he also makes me smile, makes my heart burst with love and pride, and makes me excited for his future. I love you, big man.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Things happen for a reason
Today we learned that our nursing school is closing its doors. We will be the last class to graduate from this program, which has been in existence since 1890. Doesn't that make you kind of sad? The hospital-based programs are going away, largely because of the push from hospitals for all their nurses to have Bachelor's Degrees. The CNO (Chief Nursing Officer) today told us that the hospital has made a commitment to hire program graduates before anyone from the outside. That's nice. They are also opening a brandy-new hospital in 2011, which (hopefully) means more job opportunities when I graduate in 2012.
What it also means is that you cannot take a leave of absence. When I was first considering getting a nursing degree we were also trying to get pregnant with F. When it didn't happen right away, I thought, "Oh well, I can always take a leave of absence for a year and come back to finish." The timing, as it turns out, works much much better this way.
Our hospital also works with a local college for a Bachelor's Degree. It's hard to tell from looking at their website, but it looks like I should be able to complete the BSN in less than two years, part time. Then I'll be off to look at MSN-Midwifery programs. There are 3 close enough to attend. One of them is outrageously expensive (almost $35000 per year) and the other two are a lot more reasonable. If I go back full time, I can get my MSN in an addition 12 - 18 months or 2-2.5 years part time. So, best case scenario, I'm looking at 5 or 6 more years of school. Guck.
I really wish I had figured all this stuff out when I was 18.
Monday, September 13, 2010
I can see the future
It's been fun to watch the relationship between the boys evolve. Generally, T is the one doing the annoying, the irritating, the loving and the pestering. Lately though, I've been seeing an interesting scene play out.
T hates it when F turns on the Roomba; so much so that he runs over to turn it off and put it back in place whenever F crawls over to mess with it. For the past couple days, I've watched F crawl over to the Roomba, push the button, and then lift his head up to look around for T. Reliably, T comes to turn off and right the Roomba. F waits for him to get up and walk away before crawling back over to push the button again.
This evening, the drama got still more interesting. After turning on the Roomba, F would hightail it over to Daddy to occupy the lap that T vacated to turn off the Roomba. Unfortunately, F wasn't quite quick enough to make it before T could jump back into the lap. That didn't keep F from trying a good half dozen times. Someday, F will get quicker. Someday, T may realize that he's messing with him.
Friday, September 10, 2010
6 Things: The Nursing School Edition
1. Our class building is February-in-Manitoba cold. I've taken to wearing long pants, long sleeves, socks, close-toed shoes and a hoodie to class. My nose is still cold. A couple of my fellow students have started stealing blankets and sheets from the lab linen carts to huddle under during lecture.
2. Now that F seems to be getting the hang of the whole daycare thing, T has started having difficulty. Every morning this week, he said he didn't want to go to school. Today, he asked if we "could just stay home instead." I think it's finally settled in that I'm really going to be gone all day. When I told him that we couldn't stay home because I had school too, he asked if I could come and get him before his nap. "It takes too long for you to come and get me!" Seriously, my heart is breaking. Of course, when I leave and peek back in after dropping F in his room, T is already playing with the other kids. Still.
3. Our maintenance guy walked into the room to adjust the temperature (Hallelujah!) just as our professor was showing us how to insert a foley catheter on a wall-sized illustration. He tried to look anywhere but there, and our professor turned around, flushed bright red and said (as he left) "Perfect timing. And I see him all the time."
5. Being in a classroom with all women is a strange experience. The senior class has 5 or 6 men. I often muse about how and if the discussions would be different if there were men.
6. Our professor popped my high grade balloon after coming in the morning after our exam and telling us that the exam was too easy. I'm choosing to believe we're just the smartest class they've ever had. I'm also choosing to study really hard for the next exam since it'll probably be impossible.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
When did this happen, exactly?
1. T is in boy sizes. When did that happen, exactly? I can't believe I have a boy. I'm reminded a little more every day that he's not a baby anymore. Today when I picked him up from daycare he said "Mommy, I sure did miss you today. I'm really glad you came to get me." Seriously. We play "baby" now. He curls up on our laps, pretend cries and pretend takes a bottle (not sure where he got the bottle thing. I guess it's better than pretend nursing.) I guess when you play "baby" you aren't one anymore.
2. There's not that big a difference between the boys' clothing now. I actually put one of F's shirts over T's head the other day and was putting his arms in when I realized that it was a little snug. F is very quickly approaching Toddlerhood. Sniffle. My head is spinning with how quickly these past 10 months have gone. I can't imagine our lives without him.
Yes, I realize that both my boys aren't wearing pants and the floor's covered with toys in this picture. Don't judge me.
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Sweet Validation
The long-dusty cobwebs in my brain have been swept away. I took my first exam this morning as a nursing student. About 20 minutes ago I found out that I passed my first exam as a nursing student with a 98%! Apparently I do have a science(ish) brain.
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Send positive thoughts
My first exam (on Nursing Assessment) is tomorrow morning. My note cards have been written and studied. The reading is complete. Lecture notes have been reviewed. Now all I can do is hope I studied the right stuff.
A 79 is an F. No pressure. Wish me luck folks.
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Today, 10 months
He's crawling all over the place, standing up with help of the furniture, and letting go, only to fall square on his bum. Then he'll look around confusedly, as if to say "what happened?" He takes great joy in getting into his brother's toys, and his brother in turn takes great joy in snatching them away from him.
F is still the strong but silent type. He says "Mama," "Dada," "More" and almost hyperventilates with excitement when it's time to eat or nurse. He's got a little baby-crush on the sweet little old lady who comes into the daycare in the afternoons to watch him. He follows her around the room and she tells me that he's just "the most content little guy!" He has 5 teeth (which is 5 more than his brother had at 10 months), blue (still!) eyes, and a wee bit of hair (which is a wee bit more than his brother had at 10 months).
I'm smitten. I'm in love. I can hardly believe that in 2 short months my baby is going to be a year old. Happy 10 months, little F.
Friday, September 03, 2010
And these are just for the first 6 weeks
It's not all been bad, of course. I'm enjoying the material and my classmates. The kids are adjusting pretty well to daycare. While I'm feeling completely overwhelmed, I'm also grateful to not be my class mate who is a single mom to her 2 kids, works full time and is trying to finish this program.
Good times. So, yeah. I'm not sure how much I'll be posting during the semester. F turns 10 months old tomorrow and is about as freaking cute as he can be. T is 3.5 in a week and cracks me up. I'll try to get some posts up about them. You know. In my free time.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
And there were tears all around
Yesterday, the boys started daycare. T, of course, greeted school as an adventure. He ran off to play, barely noticed that I left, and even chose to stay for the afternoon when I came to get F at 12:30. He talked excitedly all evening about all the fun stuff he did at school and was super excited to go back this morning.
F's reaction was very different. He was completely happy as long as I sat on the floor with him (yesterday, 2 hours and today for an hour). If I so much as got up to walk across the room the waterworks started. After I got him down for his morning nap yesterday, I left him for about an hour and half. The teachers said that when he got up he was in a good mood and only cried a few times. So I guess that's good news. Today was much the same. I stayed for an hour today, because I have to leave to get a tooth filled (woohoo!). He was happily eating puffs when I kissed him on his fuzzy head and told him goodbye. The teachers distracted him, but he saw me leaving and the crying was loud and constant. :( When we got pregnant with F, I thought "well, he'll be almost a year when I start school." Of course, I expected another baby like T. T would have been totally OK with daycare at 10 months. F, not so much.
Yes, I know it's going to get better. Yes, I know school is the right thing for our family. Yes, I know it's only 3 days a week. None of those things stopped my tears or made it any easier. It makes the idea of just delaying school for a few more years seem very attractive. Is this actually the right decision?
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
A new marriage and old friends
The primary reason we were back in Oz this week was that one of Ry's best friends got married. We convinced the grandparents to watch the boys for 30 hours of uninterrupted, kid-free time with good friends. It was one of the most fun and certainly the most interesting weddings I've ever been to.
We got all dolled up. We clean up pretty good I think.
E and his new wife are both of Israeli descent. The wedding was conducted in both Arabic and English by two Byzantine priests. It was beautiful, even if I didn't fully understand what was going on. The reception kicked off with these dancers. They were pretty impressive, especially when they brought out the swords a few minutes later.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Holy Moley, He's Eating Pizza!
We had lunch with Ry's Mummu and Papa, who were traveling through Oz on their way home. They hadn't seen F since he was about 4 months old, and so were quite impressed with his ability to put food away. He had some blueberries and raspberries, some bread and then some pizza. Mummu kept mentioning what a good eater he was "A good Finn!" Then she looked over and said, "Holy Moley, he's eating pizza!" Quote of the day.
The boys got along famously with their Great Mummu and Great Papa, and we had a great time catching up with them. As much as I love our home and our friends, I always get bummed that we don't live closer to our families. Still, we had a great visit.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Spelunking
Technically, we didn't spelunk. Our path was clearly laid out and lit, but we certainly felt like explorers when we went to visit Carlsbad Caverns last week.
We came prepared with good walking shoes and light jackets for the steep, wet trek into the caverns. I read this sign and giggled, saying to my mom "that's hilarious." The very earnest park ranger told me that the sign wasn't meant to be funny, it was meant to make you aware of the rigors associated with the walk. I was thoroughly chastened. Of course, every time I saw one of the rangers in the cavern I thought "We here at the Park Service have no sense of humor that we are aware of."
And this is the last glimpse of daylight from the cavern. They call it the Twlight Zone because a lot of animals get lured into the caverns only to fall to their deaths. It's a fairly full fossil record down there.
There were lots of interesting formations that would have looked more at home underwater than underground.
They also made really good use of lighting. This particular formation is call the Whale's Head because, well, because it looks like a whale's head.
My Uncle J was excellent with T. He let him look into all the nooks and crannies and helped him peek over the walls. T, for his part, is an outstanding spelunker. He whispered and walked slowly so he "didn't wake up the bats." He even had to remind us loud adults a few times.
F was sleeping or crying. But I guess you can't expect a 9 month old to get too excited about a big cave.
I highly recommend the Caverns. It's an otherworldly experience and one you're likely to remember for a long time.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
9 month baby
Yesterday, F had his 9 month check up. As normal, he's, well, normal. He weighed in at 23 pounds, 3 ounces and was 30.5 inches long. That puts him in the 90th percentile for both. He also hit all of his developmental milestones (if barely), like waving bye bye and pulling up on the furniture. He has 5 teeth, eats everything we put in front of him and looooves his bath. He thinks his brother is uproariously funny and often gets in giggling fits just watching other people laugh.
He's a big, gorgeous, normal boy. I wouldn't have him any other way.
Monday, August 09, 2010
Highs and lows
Yesterday the boys and I flew from El Paso, TX to Philadelphia after our fun visit with family. I'll get some pictures of our trip up soon. My stepdad travels like crazy and he was able to get us first class tickets for the flight home. It rocked.
My mom flew the first leg with us. We had 4 first class seats between the 4 of us. They didn't serve a meal, since it was a short flight, but we got all the drinks we could drink and crazy lots of room to kid-wrangle.
Our second flight was over 3 hours. I was looking forward to it about as much as I'm looking forward to having my second cavity filled. While we only had 2 seats, they seemed huge. T and F both took a nap for the first 45 minutes of the flight, so I got to snuggle a baby, pat a boy and have a glass of white wine. (I figured I should at least partake of one free adult beverage in first class). Then we split a plate of pasta that the flight attendant had so helpfully saved for us. T was in little -boy heaven when the ice cream and caramel brownie came out for dessert. He played DS, I baby wrangled and we chatted for the rest of the flight. Both boys were complete angels. Our flight attendant and the nice folks sitting around us complimented the boys as we were leaving (one even gave a little round of applause!). It was a lovely time. I wish the boys were always such darlings.
Ry met us at the airport and we got home, got kiddos in bed and spent some time catching up. We didn't get into bed until midnight since I'm on mountain time at the moment. Then, around 3:30 am I was laid low with a nasty GI bug that kept me in the bathroom every 15 minutes for about 12 hours. So far I've kept down a glass of room-temperature Sprite today. I'm not pushing my luck, but did manage to get a shower when Ry took F to his 9 month check up. Thank God for my husband. I'm not sure how I would have gotten through today if he hadn't stayed home from work. Now I'm off to do some more re-cooperating.
Stunning
These pictures are some of the only known color pictures taken of Depression-era small towns and rural areas. They are breathtaking. Go take a look.
Saturday, August 07, 2010
4 Generations
Thursday, August 05, 2010
8 Things: The I've been gone a long time edition
1. My Unlicensed Assistive Personnel course went beautifully. The boys loved being with their Mummu and Tantie. In fact, by the end of the 3 weeks, F would play with someone else even if I was in the same room. I couldn't have asked for a better transition for the boys. I think daycare will go much more smoothly because of their experience.
2. After 3 days in the hospital, helping people with baths, taking vital signs, feeding and caring for patients I feel even more convinced that I've chosen the right career (finally). I'm really looking forward to getting into the nuts and bolts of nursing.
3. I have decided that I will care for my parents at home for as long as humanly possible. I saw some sad stuff during my brief stay at the hospital.
4. That said, I also saw some great stuff. I want to be the 90-year-old lady I cared for who had us all in stitches.
5. My mother-in-law and sister-in-law are awesome. That's all.
6. I'm really glad that nursing school is not 5 days a week. I went into serious kiddo withdrawal by the end of the first week. Three days a week is going to be the perfect balance of school and kiddo time.
7. A day after class was over and the family left, the boys and I got on an airplane to go and visit my Aunt, Uncle and Grandmother in NM. While both boys were very good, I still don't recommend the 2-on-1 flight to anyone any time soon. Thankfully, my mom met us at our layover and helped with the second flight, baggage claim and car rental.
8. We're having a great time, but that's a subject for another post. I promise it won't be another 3 weeks this time.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Here we go
My bag is packed. The groceries are purchased. Mummu knows the routine. And tomorrow I begin my 2 year journey to nursehood.
T is totally in love with his Mummu. He thinks she's the best thing since sunbutter and jelly sandwiches.
And I'm feeling very good about Mummu and F. They seem to be getting along beautifully. I still don't think Mummu knows what she's gotten herself into, but she's excited and ready to go.
And me? I'm as ready as I'm going to get. Here we go.
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
In one swell foop
Our lives are about to change pretty dramatically. I've been feeling pretty bi-polar about school starting next week. One moment I am very excited to be starting a new adventure. The next I'm on the verge of tears thinking about F's reaction to being away from me for 8 hours a day. Then I am looking forward to having some time to be a regular adult, without a tiny person permanently attached to my hip. Then I'm back to super anxious about how I'm going to balance full-time student with mom and wife.
I always know that something is really bothering me when I start having bad dreams about it. In this case, I have been dreaming that F cries for all 8 hours ... every day.
Sometimes I'm sitting with my family and have this overwhelming sense of peace and rightness with the world. I'm just praying that my new adventure isn't going to upset the delicate balance of our lives ... too much.
Monday, July 05, 2010
Finally, really done ... mostly
Apparently, it's not a holiday weekend in our house unless we have a project. This weekend, we worked on the bathroom. We've been working on our bathroom in tiny baby steps since we bought the house 5 years ago. This is what it looked like when we closed on the house.
There was nothing wrong with it, per se, it was was just kind of boring and ugly. I especially hated the light fixture. First we painted and put in new hardware (towel racks, toilet paper holder, etc. Last summer, we finally replaced the vanity. Then we had to look for a new light fixture and medicine cabinet. I found a fixture pretty quickly and we bought it last September. It's been sitting in the basement ever since, waiting for a medicine cabinet.
Then we finally found a medicine cabinet at Ikea, of all places. We got it and promptly went on vacation. This weekend, we finally (and by we, I of course mean Ry) took down the old light and vanity, replastered and painted and installed the new.
Ta da! Isn't it lovely? I have happy.
Now we just have to pull out the awful tub surround (which stains if you so much as look at it with colored anything) and tile the tub. That is a project for another day.
Sunday, July 04, 2010
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Go Blind Squirrels!
After yesterday's fireworks fiasco, we weren't sure if we were going to catch any fireworks this Independence Day weekend. Today, T was in a great mood and took a (short) nap, so we thought we'd give the fireworks at Sesame Place a try. As it turns out, this was probably a better solution than the township fireworks would have been. It was shorter, set to Sesame Street music, and the exit was well-planned and executed. It was also about an hour earlier than the township fireworks went off. It turns out that a blind squirrel does occasionally find a nut. I've decided that blind squirrels are our new family mascot.
Friday, July 02, 2010
Niagara Falls: The Rest of the Story
I'm sure that pretty much anyone who reads this blog has already looked at the Niagara Falls pictures on Facebook. So this post won't include any of those pictures. Instead, you'll get some less touristy, but probably funnier pictures that have nothing to do with the falls, except that they were taken there.
We started out on our 436 mile journey bright and early Tuesday morning. It was the longest one-day journey we've attempted with the boys. The googles estimated that it would take us 7 hours and 15 minutes. In true family-with-young-children style, it took 10.

Once we finally got to our hotel, T was entranced with the shoe polisher. I hadn't seen one in many years. Do you still have one, Dad?

We also indulged in a glass of wine or two. Dad and Lala had stopped and picked up some bottle-sized box-o-wine. It was taaaaaasty. Then we ate dinner and watched the falls' illumination. Blah blah blah.

Day two started with a bang when we attempted to feed the kids in the hotel room. This was a bad idea.

We went on the Behind the Fall exhibit, where we all got fabulously wet and T and Lala made temporary hand print graffiti on the walls.

F and Lala size up each other. This was about as close as F got to being OK with someone other than me for the entire week. Sigh.

Dad and Lala found a golf course on Day Three, while we walked about, ate some ice cream and found a play land. That night, we went to see Oh Canada, Eh, a dinner show of all things Canada. It was fun. T tried (and liked) pea soup. Om nom nom.

We had to switch hotels this day. F was pretty tired in the morning, so I nursed him and he passed out. We packed around him.

And that night we went out for ice cream. F has a thing for teeth these days. I suppose it's because he only has the two.

The next morning, we went home. It was a great trip and even better to see Dad and Lala. I was happy to get home though, and get the boys back into their regular beds, where they sleep much, much better. Ahhh, sleep.
Discipline Sucks
Right now, we are supposed to be headed out to see the Independence Day fireworks. Instead, we're hanging on the couch. Why? Well, here's the thing.
We've been talking with T about the fireworks all week. He's been super excited. All week, I've also been telling him that he had to take a nap the day we went to the fireworks because we were going to be up late. He's a monster in the evenings if he doesn't get a nap. And so. And so, today I put him down for his nap, with a reminder that he had to take a nap so we could go see the fireworks. Then I put F down. Then half an hour later, I heard some suspicious noises coming from T's room. He was sitting up playing with his toys. Then we had this conversation.
Me: T, you need to go to sleep so we can go to the fireworks tonight.
T: OK Mommy.
We continued to have this conversation every 30 minutes. I tried rubbing his back. I tried sitting in his chair. I tried scratching his head. Nothing. None of my usual get him to nap tricks worked today. I told him that if he didn't sleep, we weren't going to be able to go to the fireworks.
Finally, around 4:15, I went into his room (where he was playing with his matchbox cars), and told him that if he would like to get up that was his choice, but it would mean no fireworks tonight. He got up. Ry asked him to take a nap so we could go. "No Daddy, I choose not to go to the fireworks." (Yes, he actually said it, just like that.)
So here we are, sitting on the couch. Fireworksless. T, of course, threw a fit tonight before bed when he realized that we really weren't going to the fireworks. He also lost dessert tonight for kicking his brother, had to go to bed early for hitting him with a toy, and lost one of his bedtime books for not listening to his father. Can't you imagine how joyful he'd have been in a crowded park 2 hours past his bedtime? Delightful.
Sometimes, it sucks to be the parent.
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